I've not weighed myself this week (my weigh-ins are Mondays), but I think I gained. I'll update this post tomorrow morning with the details. ETA: Yep, I gained. I'm at 136.4# now which is a gain of 2.8#, not the 5# I was expecting, but a gain nonetheless. Hopefully I can lose it this week...
The last two weeks have been strange. As I reported last week, I had missed some workouts and hadn't been eating right due to being out and about a lot. I didn't mention it in that post, but I also had found out that a childhood friend had lost his lifelong battle with depression. It floored me. The last I had spoke with him was 6th grade, yet we had continued on through middle and high school as classmates. He left behind a beautiful young family.
And so began my spiral downward. Because I hadn't been eating right or exercising, I didn't have the energy or desire to eat right and exercise. To quote an overweight Scottish man some of us may know, "I eat because I'm unhappy, and I'm unhappy because I eat. It's a vicious cycle."
I've struggled with depression at different times throughout my life. I could feel myself in a funk. Brad noticed too. I hate taking medication and I hate feeling that way.
A few days ago I realized that I have in my arsenal a way to combat the funky feeling. It's running. It's my drug of choice. I started up again Friday and loved the way I felt. I can feel myself crawling out of the hole I fell in. Fortunately, I have hands reaching in to help me out of the hole. Support systems are awesome that way! Whether they are In Real Life or of the online variety, we all need them. We're not meant to go through life alone.
Tuesday I begin the
Couch to 5k program with some ladies here in my neighborhood. I already am hitting 13 miles on my weekly long runs, but that's on a treadmill without using inclines. I'd like to train on the hills here for my half-marathon in September. I also was hoping to find some running buddies. I live in a fairly safe neighborhood, but would feel more comfortable running with others.
I hope everyone has had a great week. If you're able, I'd suggest attending
Mamavation tomorrow night as the incredibly awesome Pete Cohen will be there. Also, I will try to get to the other
Mamavation posts. I unfortunately, have not been as good at that as I would like. I've received so much support along the way; I really want to share my support with others!